Hello from a very hot part of the country! :}~
I also wanted to let the few people who verbally spanked me that I agree with you, 100 percent.
I did find myself, after many people asking, what the reason/s were that I got cut last year. I still don't think my audition was all that great, but what else?
Was t because I didn't get all weepy and emotional? WAS it the whole Susan Boyle thing? I will never know for sure, but I do think I got in a subconscious mind set that if it was that type of thing, then yes, it didn't matter really what I did, it wouldn't change tghe reason and I would still not be chosen.
So yes, I agree whole heartedly that I sabatoged myself, though not truly intentionally.
Ok, off to buy groceries for my girl's wedding! Stay cool and I'll talk to you all when I get back! And I'll say hi to the fireflies for you all! ;)